Unknown LoveI faltered @ 3:27 a.m. on April 21, 2003
Isn�t it sad to have a crush on a complete stranger? Well I know the full-blown truth to that. There's this guy that lives a couple of houses next to me that I really like. He doesn't know me and I don't know him. All I know about him is that he likes music because he always has his CD player just like me. I just noticed around four months ago that he lived on my block. I always wondered who had moved into that apartment building. I saw a couple of moving trucks parked outside my house. Sometimes after school I see him on the bus with me and he just stares at me. I know staring's just staring but it's pretty intense. I mean he won't stop staring until I go into my house. So if I�m walking faster then him and get to my house first, he�ll just stand there on his steps just staring. Sometimes I wonder if he wants me to speak to him. Actually he makes me pretty nervous at times. Well any way at school two weeks ago I told me friend about my crush. When we were talking she was like why don't you go up to him and ask, "Who the hell are you? Or why the hell are you staring at me?� Of course me being so shy, I told her I could never do that. We joked about it all through the school day and most of the week. And we�re still joking about it. I kind of hate myself for being so shy. Though I�m pretty proud of myself for almost fully overcoming my shyness. After elementary school I become a little more active and social. Now that I�m in 8th grade I�m only a bit shy in school, after school I�m just ready to be loud and act stupid. But that�s not the point right now. The point is my crush. I made a vow to myself that I would try to find out who he is by graduation. Which would be June 20th. I have so little faith in me that I know I�ll never be able to keep this promise. But I�ll try nonetheless. My friend and I also wrote a poem that really is just a list of all the possible questions I could ask him arranged in a poetic flow. It�s really stupid but I like it anyway. I�ll try to post it later on this week. Well I�m ending this entry right�about�now.
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