**My life's a broken jigsaw puzzle...I faltered @ 10:25 p.m. on May 01, 2003
..there's always a piece missing.**
I really love my friends but they do the stupidest things at the wrong freaking time. I finally saw that guy I like 2 two days in a row except for today. >=O!!! On the first day everything was fine aside from my friend Courtney who keep jerking on my arm and breaking our eye contact. When we got off the bus and Court was still talking and he turned and was watching me the whole. The second day was the worst. I was on the bus with Court again and he came on. First he was at the front but looked to the back, we made eye contact and he moved to the back with towards me. Now he was sitting opposite of where I was sitting and looked back every so often. Everything was fine until the bus cleared out. He looked at me and then moved to the seats in front of me. Now me and Court was still talking and he was still staring when she happened to mention a guy we knew and asked "Isn't he fine?", so I said he's okay. The guy looked at me with hurt, sad puppy eyes and moved away. I guess he heard me say that and it hurt his feelings. Now I do know he doesn't think much of Courtney because I got off the bus once and he was in front of us and she said "Whoa dumbo ears". He didn't turn around but tensed up. Then I said that I liked guys with big ears and he relaxed turned around and smiled. She started walking away and never saw him smile at me. Thank God. That was the third time I had seen him and when the staring got really intense. It still kinda scares me. *sweat drop* If you couldn't tell I never did tell Courtney that I liked him. I know her very well and she'll make the situation even worse. So I really don't plan on telling her anytime soon. She's the last person I want messing up things. Especially with him. I think he thinks she's kinds stupid or something cause he keeps giving her these "what the fuck is wrong with you?" faces. At least La and Lauren are giving me encouragement, they're not as heartless as some of my friends.
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